Sandy Thao

I was really excited, I finally got a model that would shoot with me after hours just 8 or so but yeah this is pretty fun, minus the rude people shouting like idiots on the streets. The photos turned out better than I had expected! Although I was planning to do something with weird shaped bokeh it didn't work out because we didn't have enough light but that's ok! Here's my shoot with Sandy Thao!

Hello guys so I'm so excited about this lens that I've been shooting nonstop with it scheduling shoots one after another just for the fun of it. Today I took pictures of my sister and her boyfriend and then Houa Yang came over with her son which he is soooo handsome now! She's still one hot mama after three kids. We just went crazy with with makeup and wig but nothing too over the top.

I'm just testing out he 50mm 1.8 I love the quality so far!

Wig obsession

So lately I've been so obsessed with wigs, I don't know I just like the whole feeling of looking different because I don't like to dye my hair so yeah, I got these wigs from ebay but they are really good! I got them for under $30 but they're so worth it. A while back I went to a korean store called W&2 wigs, I swear those ladies stared me down the whole time! I bought a wig it was $40! Yeah $40 for crap wig, it couldn't even resist a little heat so it died. I'm so disappointed! It's ok, I'll never make that mistake again I'll just buy from ebay vendors.

OH yes! These were taken by my new 50mm 1.8 lens. They look awesome! love the blurred effect/bokeh!!!!

Kazoua Xiong

Seems today luck was on our side for once, we were allowed into the church to take some portraits for Kazoua Xiong. She is so gorgeous I barely had to do anything to the photos besides fixing the lighting. Great shoot with the help of Houa Yang she really did have great ideas and helped think of poses for the model. All I used was two speedlites.

Kabao Lor

I needed Kabao to come out to test my new YN 462 speedlites, plus we haven't shot in forever so it was a great catching up time. This girl is such a great model she knows how to work it in front of the camera, I had a whole bunch of great shots I'm working on them but here are some photos. My speedlites always has this problem where it flashes continuously for long periods of time, I'm worries because that's going to use up a lot of batteries. But if anyone knows how to fix this please let me know. Other than that hot sweaty day in North Carolina.

Insomnia

It's late night insomnia again. Something's bothering me but I just don't quiet know how to explain it, it's relationship wise too. It's not like I don't want to tell him how I feel it's just I'm so lost in my own train of thought. One of the things I hate doing is crying in front of people, so if I were to dig deep within myself and tell him how I feel, I just know the tears will start rolling any second. So I keep everything that he says and does that has made a negative impact on me inside and just wait for it to dissolve and disappear. I guess this habit accumulated overtime due to my lack of social abilities. In the end this bad habit is what's driving us both insane, because when an argument starts up I'll just speak without thinking. Of course I always feel inferior towards people, I pity myself. Confidence is so hard to achieve and that's one of my downfalls, is my lack of confidence. I just know that if one day it all ends on bad terms it'll be me at fault because of my stubbornness. I need to open up and stop bottling up emotions. Sometimes it makes me wonder what people are really after. I know that he tries to "unintentionally" hurt me all the time and bring down my pride, it's not just a feeling, like I said I know, but even so he'll deny it or do it unknowingly. I can let go of things and not talk about it for years and years but once that memory surfaces again I know I'll have another emotional break down. Anyways I'm writing this because I miss my boyfriend whom is asleep and I know I'll miss him more when he goes back to college.

Anyways I want to explain myself since I've been posting up photos like crazy lately. Yes this bad habit is eating me away that's why photography is my best friend, because I can speak without words and it'll still have a bigger impact, plus the photo can probably say what I can't say on my own will.